Carpe diem

This has been on my mind recently, partly because of the book I've been reading mentioned this several times  - carpe diem (seize the day).

I then reflect on my life - spent most of it worrying about something, from the smallest to the craziest.  A worrywart to the max!  There was a time in my life when I was an optimistic person.  But like anything else, I have changed because of age, circumstances, job, family... the works.  It didn't help that I had breast cancer which magnified my worrywart persona. 

I'm at a point where everything feels like a blah.  But the thought of seizing the day made me think twice.  We only live once and why not, should I dare say it, go out of the norm, be spontaneous and seize the day.  It is so unlike me.

Listening to today's homily did put some sense into it, there are many "should" in our lives to make it perfect for ourselves, our family, our jobs, our lives, etcetera.  It hit me, I do all those.  I always think that I should to make sure everything is perfect the way I want it, the way it should be.  It causes anxiety, stress and frustration.

So for starters, I'm stepping out of my comfort zone, trying new things, doing something out of the norm... so that I can enjoy life and seize the day.  We'll see how it goes.