If one has the power to turn back the hands of time, five years ago, today would've been my first chemo. I was terrified, anxious, uncertain of what was ahead. The thought of losing my hair, the thought of what it will do to me, the thought of what it will do to my family.... it was unbearable.
I've had:
1 chemo treatment
2 types of cancer
3 lymph nodes remove
4 weeks of radiation (I think)
5 years ago (or so) was when I was diagnosed with cancer
6 cycles of chemo
7 months more of Tamoxifen (guesstimate)
Countless times of blood tests, doctors' appointments, mammos, ultrasounds, body scans and x-rays
Numerous times when I've had (and still do) experience brain fog (or chemo brain).
So why do I keep looking back at those hard, trying times? Because the past built who I am today. It made me stronger. It gave me a newer perspective in life and taking one day at a time without stressing too much about the future (really trying to do this!). But most of all hopeful and thankful. Hopeful that I'll get to enjoy life more with my family, especially our children, and thankful that our good Lord gave me another chance in life.
