Another Milestone?

This time last year I was completely knocked out, boobs sliced open and in surgery. I had lumpectomy December 9, 2008. One year ago. A friend said happy anniversary. I told her it's not really an anniversary I want to celebrate. I think it's just a milestone, to mark a year has passed since I had surgery. Nothing else.

I'm not really sure why but today I wasn't myself. I feel like crying but don't know why. I feel depressed but I don't know why. Does it have something to do with the fact that it has been a year since my surgery? I feel sad and tired. I didn't feel like doing anything. I'm just glad the day's almost over. I can't wait to go to bed soon and wake up tomorrow to a much better day than today.

Coconut-nuts!

I think my noggin needs a tune-up. Lately I kinda noticed that I'll read something and it takes awhile for the info to sink in. I'm also having a hard time multi-tasking. When I receive an email I sometimes have to read it at least two times before responding to it. Due to force of habit, I tend to hit send too fast and regret doing it afterwards realizing I did something wrong. It feels like something in my brain is not making the right connections. It's the chemo brain, there's no other explanation for it. I read the symptoms of chemo brain and they're exactly what I'm having right now. It is so frustrating and I feel inefficient. Darn it! I just hope it doesn't get worse. (sigh!)

'Tis the Season!

'Tis the season to be jolly.... Fa la la la la, la la la la...

Indeed it is! It's the 1st day of December, 24 more days and it'll be Christmas!!! Christmas is probably my favorite time of the year. It's the time to celebrate the birth of Christ, time of giving, sharing, spending time with family and best of all opening presents!!!!!!

I just started shopping for presents on Saturday and believe me that's quite unusual. I usually buy presents at least two weeks before Christmas. I want to see the madness of people buying Christmas presents at the last minute, long line ups at the cashiers, just the craziness of it all.

But this year I want to do things differently after all I have every reason to celebrate Christmas this year. I got a new lease on life. I am alive, well and happy. A new me. All the good reasons to celebrate Christmas and the rest of my life.

So the new me is stronger, more vocal and has thrown stress out of the window (or at least I'd like to think so). The new me started Christmas shopping and will do anything to make this season and the days to come extra special.

'Tis the season to celebrate! :)