Lately I've been feeling like crap because of the surgery. Like shifting gears in a car, I could be on park, neutral, reverse or drive (sleeping, weak/normal, in pain or feeling fine, respectively). It is different everyday.
Saturday I felt crappy, dizzy and was in pain. Yesterday I woke up dizzy and so weak. Today I'm on neutral, a little weak but kind of normal. Almost everyday since the surgery I've been trying to psych myself to go back to work, but I could feel normal today and not tomorrow. Today for instance I feel like I'm ready to return to work tomorrow but I'll play it by ear how I feel tomorrow morning. Some people might recover faster than I do, but like the doctors said, each person recovers differently from the other.
For the first time since the surgery, the wound bled last night after brushing my teeth. It was gushing and my stent was all red. Gross! I had to put a gauze in my mouth to stop the bleeding. It did after a few minutes. I do not know if that is good or bad. It feels like there is a hole in the wound. Yuck. Shifting gears to reverse, back to square one, the day of the surgery. It was uncomfortable and feels icky.
It is Day 12 since the surgery and still wearing the stent, possibly for another couple of weeks or so. I've slowly started eating solids. Uncomfortable as it may be and after chopping or mashing the food to pieces, it feels good to eat regular food. Paranoia sometime sets in with the thought that the palate will be infected but with the prescribed mouth rinse I think it should be ok.
It is kind of frustrating how unpredictable my condition is every day. I just hope I can pass this "driving" test, get my license to drive, drive to the road to recovery, sooner than later.
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