It Comes in Threes

First I had breast cancer on the right breast, second I have tumor on my palate (polymorphous low grade adenocarcinoma or PLGA) and now I have a cyst on my left breast.  I cannot take it anymore!

Today we saw Dr. K for my annual check-up usually two weeks after the regular mammogram.  Everything was going well.  The mammogram was clear. He asked how things are with me, about my general health and how I am coping.  I said it is overwhelming what's been happening to me lately but trying to stay positive.  I also updated him about the PLGA and the pain on my left breast plus the breast ultrasound I had.   I mentioned that I have not heard anything from Dr. C so I was wondering if he knew what the results were.  He checked my file and what do you know, the results indicated  I have a cyst.  I was not expecting that, I was shocked.  Probably moreso why Dr. C never called me about the results (she is normally good at it).

I could not believe what I was hearing.  How much more can I take?  Dr. K tried to come my nerves, he said it is benign and the radiologist suggested that I get follow-up ultrasounds every 3-6 months because I had breast cancer.  It was a bit weird that the cyst was not captured in the mammo.  Anyway, Dr. K said there is nothing to worry about.  However to air on the side of caution, Dr. K suggested that I see Dr. P, my surgeon, to know what should be done with it.  Dr. K and Dr. C were not able to feel the cyst, hopefully Dr. P can.  Dr. K said that the next steps will be dependent on Dr. P's findings.  Dr. K will send a referral letter to Dr. P explaining everything. 

So my world is shattered, yet again, for the THIRD friggin' time.  WTF! Strangely, I did not cry when I got the news.  It could be that I could not believe my "luck" or it could be that I've become numbed with all that has been happening to me. 

When I got back to work, Mark texted me to call Dr. C coz she wanted to talk or see me.  I called her clinic to see what's happening and to book an appointment.  The next thing I knew Dr. C was talking to me.  She was very apologetic that she didn't call me right away, she just got a copy of the results of the ultrasound and wondered if I have talked to anyone about it.   I said Dr. K told me everything and what his advice was.  Dr. C agreed with Dr. K that I see Dr. P.  Since I had her on the line I also updated her about the PLGA.  Her comment was "Isn't that great?  It is back to back good news for you.  A benign cyst and clear results from the CT scan/MRI."  I'm like, sure, whatever.  I asked her a few times if I should be concerned about it, maybe to reassure myself it will be ok.  She assured me and I should not worry about it.

So here we go again.  Hearing the same shit, experiencing the same crap and heading up to a stressful phase.  I am at my wit's end with all these health issues happening to me. 

But what can I do, like I've always said, everything happens for a reason.  God has plans for me.  Whatever they may be, only He knows.  For now all I can do is pray.  Pray for strength, pray for guidance and pray for the best.  Three things I'm asking for, after all, they say it comes in threes, right?