Free Again

The past couple of weeks I've been contemplating on having my hair cut - a) shave it; b) go to a mom and pop hair salon and get it cut for a cheaper price; or c); or go to my favorite hairstylist, a pro and charges a lot.  I was leaning towards "b)" but the past couple of times I did that, I was disappointed, very basic cuts that didn't do anything for me.  Option "a)" was a bit nerve wracking since I'm still traumatized or still have bad memories when my hair was shaved prior to chemo.  My cousin, B, convinced me that go for option "c)" - go to my favorite stylist who knows my hair more than anyone and also the fact that she's a very good with what she does.  B said, although it's pricey, the satisfaction of getting a good haircut plus how it will boost my confidence will be priceless.

And so I did, today I got a haircut with my favorite stylist, H.  I was kind of nervous before my appointment.  The salon was at the mall, right across my work, worried my co-workers will see me "au naturel".  I also wasn't sure how H would react to my ever-so-thin hair/bald spot.  But all those "fears" disappeared when we talked.  She made me feel at ease and relaxed (I swear stylists can also be good shrinks coz they know how to lift a woman's spirits!).  I showed her pictures of Victoria Beckham and a few other models with a pixie haircut/style.  H loved all the pictures I showed her and said it will suit my style/face.   She did say the texture of my hair is totally different - it's thin and curly whereas before it was wavy and thick.  Anyway, it felt like I was back to my old self when she did her "magic" to make my hair look more stylish. 

Afterwards, it looked much better than this morning.  The curls were gone (for now, until it grows back).  I left the salon feeling confident.  And for the first time since I got my hair back, I drove without any bandana or wig.  It felt.. oh... so... GOOOOOD!!!  Like my head could breathe again.  I rolled the windows down and I felt the wind blowing on my thin but short hair.  It was free again. 

I cannot describe how awesome it felt.  The past few days have been one heck of an emotional roller coaster ride for me.  But today, all the emotional stress I've had this week seems to have been blown away by this new confidence, all because of a simple haircut.  I can safely say my "crowning glory" is slowly but surely coming back.  Oh what a feeling!