Back to Normal?

On Saturday I had an unexpected visitor, my period. I thought my days of having my monthly visitor were done, finito! Guess not.

I couldn't believe it after like eight months of not having it at all. It was back. Instead of looking at it as a monthly nuisance I will take it that my body finally got rid of the chemo and everything is back to normal.

Same goes with my toenails, they are almost back to normal except for the tips of two biggest/smallest toes which still have a hint of darkness to it. In a couple of weeks I'll cut them off and they'll be as good as new. My fingernails are looking fabulous and quite honestly I never appreciated them more than I do now. Sometimes I just stare at them at disbelief they're back to normal. :)

My hair? It's getting there. It's the curliest it's ever been. They were curly when I was a child but not as curly as I have them now. It's still very short. The top part is still kind of thin. Thin enough that I still get conscious about it. Thin enough that I still wear my wig to work or at parties. Thin enough that I still wear a bandana when I go out of the house but I don't wear anything on my head when I am at home. But today was a big step for me. I talked to my neighbour for the first time without any head cover and it felt awesome. Someone might say so what, it was not a big deal. It was to me.

I know it may sound weird but after my chemo every little thing I do that makes me feel normal again is liberating! I feel like jumping for joy every single time, it even chokes me up sometimes, because I know in my own little way I won. I'm alive. I'm well. I'm happy. And if those are signs that I am indeed back to normal, well darn it, I am so glad I am!