Exactly this time last year I was balling my eyes out because I received THE most devastating news in my life. I had breast cancer. I was in complete shock and could not stop myself from crying. I was inconsolable. Who wouldn't be?
I was very scared of what was going to happen to me. I didn't know what to expect. A million questions ran through my mind. A couple of questions stood out among the rest - "Why me?" and "What's going to happen to our kids?".
I also remember writing an email to my boss and a couple of my friends at work that night. I decided to write an email because I was a mess and couldn't even talk without crying. I remember my tears were running down my cheeks as I wrote the email - "my doctor confirmed my worst fear, I have breast cancer".
It's been a year and yet it is still hard to accept. Maybe because a part of me was lost, the old me, gone. But I always look at it this way: "Everything happens for a reason". Maybe it happened to me because I need to stop and smell the roses. Maybe it was my wake up call. And I think it was. I gained a different perspective in life.
Is it worth celebrating this "anniversary"? At first I would say no, because finding out you have cancer is not a reason to celebrate. It has been the toughest year of my life. However, after going through the past 10 difficult and challenging months, I would say, "YES, it is worth celebrating!" I made it! I am well! I am cancer-free! I am alive! :D Thank God for that!
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