It's that time again, a few days before my chemo. The stress level is slowly but surely increasing as the day gets closer. I have yet to check my blood pressure but I'm sure it is higher than normal. Another thing is I usually have a short temper during these times and very sensitive. One wrong word or phrase could trigger anger or resentment on my part and even shed some tear or two depending what the issue is (are).
I should be used to it by now but I'm not. Each chemo treatment seems to have a different effect on me, be it on chemo day or the days after. It's like expecting the unexpected. I never look forward to it. The last few days prior to chemo are my bad days. I may feel good with no aches and pains but deep inside I'm scared.
Today I tried to relieve this stress the only way I can, I went to the mall, shopping therapy. ;) I guess it is any woman's therapy and it was also a change of scenery instead of being stuck in the house most of the time. I felt good afterwards. That helps. I also went to Wellspring this afternoon and did the exercise program. That's always fun. I always look forward to going to the program because it gives me the chance to mingle with other cancer patients. I told them about my forthcoming chemo and they all wished me luck.
Two more chemos to go, such a small number but it feels like an eternity to me. I may sound like a broken record but I cannot wait until my chemo is over.
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