Me and my blog

I started this blog mainly to write my thoughts, fears, angst and how I'm dealing with my fight against breast cancer. It was mainly for me. It is my therapy. Then it became a way of keeping all our family and friends updated about my health and how I'm doing especially during my treatments. So far I received positive feedback from everyone about my blog. :) Some said it is an eye opener or made them look at life with a different perspective. I'm glad you like it :) Thanks!

You'll also know when I'm having good and bad days. There are days when my mind is running wild with ideas what to write and sometimes it doesn't. Someone said no pressure in writing an entry and do it only when I feel like it. :) But I'll try my best to keep it updated.

Since I haven't had an entry since Valentine's Day I thought I'd let you know what's been happening since then.

Mark accidentally cut his middle and index fingers on his left hand on Sunday while cutting some pineapples for the smoothie he made. It was a bloody scene. Ugh! I dropped him off at the hospital's ER. I couldn't go with him because the ER is the worst place for me to contract a virus or illness. Anyway he was at the hospital for 7 hours and received a few stitches on each finger. They look gross!

It was a holiday here on Monday, Family Day, and a beautiful day as well. We spent the afternoon in Toronto. It was fun, a change in scenery. Jason and Joshua saw a streetcar, something that we don't have in our town. They were thrilled to see one. Mark also bought them Pokemon books. That was the highlight of their day. ;)

Tuesday I went to work to drop off my disability forms. It was nice to see my co-workers again, I miss them a lot. While at the office I found out the pilot project we launched last year was nominated for an internal award. Cool! I'm part of the project team. Neat. :)

I wanted to stay longer at work but a nurse came over our house to assess how I'm doing since my chemo started. That was a fruitful meeting because Nurse M told me that a nurse will be on call to help me if I need any help especially after chemo when my health is not at its best. She also told me that a nurse will come to our house until the end of my chemo. That was good news because we were told a homecare nurse will only help me until the end of March to inject the very expensive Neulasta. Nurse M assured me that will not happen and she'll make sure I'm looked after until my last chemo cycle. :)

Wednesday was different, I woke up with a migraine and had chills the whole morning. I felt weak and not myself the whole day. The migraine plus the fact that my head these days is so tender and itchy drove me crazy. My mood swings unbearable. This proves that I might feel great today but not tomorrow. It's a fact I've learned to accept since my chemo started.

Today, I feel great. Go figure. So I took advantage of my good day and did some errands. I also decided to shave my head this morning once and for all. The itchiness was driving me up the wall. Not only that bald patches on my head is becoming the norm. My hair is coming off like crazy. So today was the day to bid adieu to my hair for now.

Mark was the "executioner" ;) He's working from home and did it when he took a break. No tears this time! :D I wanted it off so bad I couldn't wait. He did a decent job of shaving it because our clipper's not very sharp he couldn't shave everything. I felt relieved when it was all done. The itchiness disappeared instantly. I should've done this a while back. ;)

And now my head feels lighter. Taking a shower is a breeze! I stared at the mirror for quite sometime and surprisingly I'm not upset. What's weird is that my scalp is lighter than my skin tone. It looks like I have a two-toned skin and an egg-head ;) hee, hee.

I also noticed that the colour of my nails is starting to change. The top of my thumbs and index fingers are turning dark like they're bruised. It's one of the many side effects of chemo. I gotta start painting my nails. The metal taste in my mouth is more prominent and it has a tendency to make me nauseous. Gargling with salt and warm water or drinking water with lemon or lime helps remove the weird taste.

I know I've said it before but I can't wait until this is all over. It is not fun at all. I have one more week before the third chemo. I might as well enjoy it while it last. One positive note is that after my third chemo, I'm halfway through, closer to the finish line. :)

Ta-ta for now!